2010
02.05

His name was Josias Kegal. He was the first to discover The Missing Walls.

Local Boys Discover Walled-Up Room at ‘Razor’ Asylum

April 13, 1952

NEWARK, N.J. – A trio of teenage boys made a gruesome discovery at the site of the former “Razor” asylum last night.

The three boys, after vandalizing one of the long-abandoned Hessh Asylum’s inner walls in what they termed ‘just a bit of fun,’ discovered a sealed-off room in the process.

“We just wanted to see in the Razor,” said Sherman Multin, one of the three teen boys. “We found a couple walls that weren’t torn up like the others. John brought a sledgehammer, so he knocked a hole out of one. That’s when we saw it.”

“It” was the full skeleton of a human male, imprisoned in a windowless room built at some point during the asylum’s operating years. It was slumped against one pitted cement wall, facefirst. On the walls surrounding the skeleton, the no-doubt former patient had painted a large number of weird symbols.

“Frankly, I don’t know what they mean,” said Patrick Wildfire, psychologist and nephew of Dr. Anna Wildfire, responsible for the construction and naming of the Hessh Asylum in 1804. “I never even knew about a room like this. All the symbols look like gobbledygook. Some poor soul’s ravings, I’d call it. That’s all.”

Nicknamed “The Razor” due to its high number of lobotomy patients, the Hessh Asylum operated from 1804 to 1849. It closed in the summer of 1849 due to a sudden, violent collapse of the main building and an alarming number of patients gone missing. Even today, over thirty patients remain unaccounted for.

Its last administrator, Dr. Henry Merriweather, made several bizarre claims about his patients’ behavior before the collapse. As Dr. Merriweather was committed shortly after the Razor’s roof caved in, these claims are likely baseless.

The three boys were released to their parents after they flagged down a police officer and drove with him back to the police station. None of the parents decided to comment for this story.

The symbols found on the room’s walls have been copied and sent to Dr. Stephen Crestfall, a linguistics expert at Stanford University in California, for study. Perhaps they had some meaning to the unnamed patient. Other efforts to determine the patient’s identity have turned up nothing.

In a bizarre final note, police found one word that was written in English on the walls. However the word – “Jurrecz” – has no known meaning.

2010
01.29

Discovered in a condemned home in the crowded recesses of London. Curiously, its penmanship matched that of the central figure in the events I have chronicled in “The Seven Knives.” But that was recent; this note was decades old. However could the two be written by the same hand…?

These circumstances were forced. I don’t know this house. I don’t even know when I am.
I must have done something to get me here.

It’s like some god put seeds in our minds from before. When we will make him mad some time in the future. That makes sense, right? No, how could it?

I thought it was seven, but it’s 4. Seven was the Knives I saw for cutting the gates open.

4 is worse. 4 is faster.

Only 8 Keys left!

It hurts me to think. I shouldn’t try, there’s something inside…

ONLY AEYONS SUN EERIE TWIN MOTE CREST LAIRDS WASTES ARMORS PIERCE MUU HIDDEN GATES BEYOND ONCE MUSED RITE CXL GOD INSECT MEN FORCES IMMIX BURSTER MERGE

What is that? What did I write?

Oh proto-gods, I see it. Every four. Every four!

2010
01.16

It is remarkable how the concepts of chaos and order parallel perception and reality.

The mammalian brain changes its thoughts, and reality grates upon that new perception. Clashing truth to belief. Sometimes reality gives way. Or perception adjusts. Only will may decide this, at any given moment.

The question of the parallel then arises. Which is order, and which is chaos?

Most fools would presume that human perception is fundamentally chaotic. Unable to focus, difficult to process. Reality however does not change from blink to blink. This must be true; it always has been. Yes?

Heh.

What if I told you that Order was perception, and reality was Chaos? What would you think if perception was what pulled you back from absolute electrifying madness?

It is true. The universes are insane.

As bracing as such a concept may be, consider its further implications. If perception paints an order upon it in which the human mind may function…what happens when you change your perception?

Can you change the color of songs, of thoughts, of color itself? Yes. There is a power in this. Build what you wish to see. Take turpentine to physics or nature.

But a price must also be paid. And when it is…there will come a moment when perception goes awry. As it finally, inevitably does.

There are incidents where perception shattered in the wake of chaos. A few of these incidents you have recorded in history; I will reveal them at a later date. What is important to learn from them is a truth abominable to human understanding.

Chaos is not bound by time.

Things done now (not perceived) may affect the past. They bend themselves into existence by brittling Time’s arrow.

And the future is influenced by the present. Both can be equally warped, but in different directions. It has happened because it will happen. Reality obeys Chaos, and Chaos does not coincide with the notion of before-now-after.

When the warping of today collides with the implacable whorls of tomorrow…what happens then?

The universal walls of Order – of Perception – begin to fray.

And in between those frays lurk the Arms That Howl.

2010
01.08

A gray woman
Sits unmoving in dark chambers
All her body draped in webs
The spiders tend her tapestry

Does she live? Sleep?
Is her spirit chained?
The skin a garment
What moves between shown in their weaves

When Meln’k is gone
Realms fold
The Woman Enwebbed
Lifts her head at last

Too deep in truth
Realms will cull
You may not like what you find
You may not like what you awaken.

2009
12.18

“Million glass piercings,
For miles, the very land stirs,
Myriapod brothers in hordes,
Is this the dark world?”

The sights from El’Shem’Kri Spire haunted Meln’k. Even a spider can have nightmares.

Meln’k went to the Inevitable Call for peace. For a chance to rid herself of the truth, escaping into the bliss that is blackness between existences.

Unfortunately for her, her tale is not yet over. That day is for me to decide.

Thus far you have seen half of her great riddle. I decreed that when it was solved, she would have her escape. But none have solved it yet…for its solution is not merely one phrase or idea. Four secrets are tangled within its quatrains. Only when all four are unraveled shall the Spider Prophetess know peace.

2009
12.11

Excavated from a home site fourteen years ago in northwestern Pennsylvania was a short diary. No name was found in it. No dates. Only a few mundane entries. And this…

There is a spider in here. It watches me.

I called for Father to make it go away. Without lighting even a single candle, he said there was no spider.

He left me alone.

I keep my diary by my bed. But I’m afraid to leave the bed to get away from the spider. I can see it in the shadows there. Black ugly thing. I want it to leave me alone.

I don’t know how it got in. I didn’t let it in. Somehow it crawled into my room when the window and door were shut. Now it squats there watching. It must have found a way. I can see its many eyes glaring.

Why do they act this way? Am I food to it? Or does it simply hate me?

It came closer.

I looked away for just a second, and it moved closer. I’m sure of it.

It must hate. Those eyes glisten with nothing less. But what hate? What did I do to it–

It moved again. I saw it. If the thing had a tongue I know I’d see it lick those wicked fangs.

What does it wait for?

I should call Father again. He has a gun and a great knife I’m not supposed to know about. He could kill it before it reaches me.

Oh Almighty God it’s so close now. I don’t want to die. It scraped its legs against the floor. I can almost hear it. Or is that coming from outside? Are there more?

Take this foul beast away! Father won’t answer me, he thinks I’m telling stories. I told the spider to go away. I threatened it.

It only creeps closer!

I cannot reach my shoes without taking my eyes off it now. Please God, make it go away. I will never harm a spider again, I didn’t know they could grow as large as dogs, please spare me
those eyes

If you search through local county records in the early 1800s, you’ll find a newspaper article about the body of a young girl discovered in her own side yard. Mutilated so badly they would not describe her condition in the article. Only that she had ‘great holes’ and her face was ‘unrecognizable.’

“Assumed work of a maniac believed to prowl about.” How wrong they were.
I know what that ’spider’ truly was. Do you?

2009
12.04

This is a partial account of the Vinuk Massacre of 1344. You have never heard of this? There is a reason. Read and perhaps you will find it.


December the 14th, 1384

I know I don’t understand what happened. This won’t even make sense. But I have to tell it to you. It won’t leave me unless I tell it.

Forty years ago tonight Vinuk, my old village, was attacked. By what things, I still don’t know. I think I’ve found the answer in the years since then, but there’s no way to be absolutely sure. Even the answer I found seems like a pathetic imitation of what my people experienced in their final moments.

They were wild, shaggy beasts. Something like man, but far larger, possessed of demon-spirits, terrible enough to make old men scream. They came upon us as the night began. Bursting out of the dim edges of the forest. Perhaps they were some evil spirits loosed by our actions. Or maybe just an uncaring world that wanted playthings.

They broke down every door and entered our homes. I can still hear the wood cracking under their gnarled fists, big as a man’s head! The doorframe cracked too as they pushed their ugly bodies inside. I was sitting in my room that night, carving some wood-blocks. I heard the loud crack. And my sister screaming. Then this horrible sound…like someone tearing fruit…

I heard my father yell then, and his sword unsheathe. Part of me wanted to go out and fight whatever attacked us with him. But I could not move. Screaming flooded in all around, freezing my body, as though air were water meant to carry the pain into me.

Then my mother called out something in the old tongue. I think it was, “Bes! Odist Bes!” I heard footsteps, great hulking footsteps that rattled the wood and spoke of nightmare places, and an animal’s cry that shook all the windows. Then I heard it again from somewhere outside. And again. There were many.

By some Providence I was spared the monster’s intrusion. Of the memory, however, I was not spared. Between the window and me was my bed. Hunched while sitting as I was the bed obscured me to the outside. But I saw it walk past. Something more monkey than man, huge and coated with matted yellow fur, with terrible eyes of blood. From it wafted a terrifying air of savagery, a hatred of life, an abandon of anything good or worthwhile.

It didn’t look at me. To this day I’m grateful. For I’m sure whatever insane truths it knew, whatever foul purpose guided it and its brethren…
To see them in its eyes would have left me as broken, as mad-dead as it left the bodies of my family.

–Piotr Yvenshich, aged 48


Piotr was the sole survivor of the Vinuk Massacre. He was found almost a month afterward, having wandered out of the forest into Smolensk. Naked, covered in dirt and caked blood, so addled of mind he could barely speak.

His life in Smolensk was fraught with poverty; he spent almost half of it in asylums. He died shortly after recounting this story to a state authority. This authority is unnamed in the account. At this point, all records die out.

“Bes” is the name of a demon in old Slavic mythology. This is incorrect; the old woman mislabeled their visitor. Though a demon it could be judged, by its actions.

This is only half the story. No one ever found out about the symbols scratched into the rocks a mile north of Vinuk. They never found the blasphemous priestess who painted her body and danced that night. They never saw the remains left when her body exploded to complete the realm-piercing spell.

All of this is still there.

The piercing still yawns open.

2009
12.02

I never met Charles Fort. Having read little of his work, I cannot ascertain whether he was brilliant or insane.
Given this passage I happened upon though, both are distinct possibilities.

“There are pale stenches and gaunt superstitions and mere shadows and lively malices: whims and amiabilities. The naïve and the pedantic and the bizarre and the grotesque and the sincere and the insincere, the profound and the puerile.”
–Charles Fort, The Book of the Damned

He also wrote a quotation which I find skillfully observant.

“If there is a universal mind, must it be sane?”

No, Mr. Fort. There is no such commandment. And even if there was, the universal mind has already defied it.

2009
11.27

In the wild lands of the northern Americas, between seven rock-grizzled cliffs and four withered forests, all covered over by spinnings of acrid steam leaking between realms, a pit lies in the land.

Those humans who heard the name call it the Pit of the Seven Knives. But it has another, older name. The insects called it Kl`kknnn. As we often ascribe meaning to things in order to elevate our own importance, one could translate this word as “Between.”

Have you thought of insects? The buzzing hordes whose members cause revulsion merely by appearing? No, you simply killed them. Crushed them underfoot, as callous as a brutish giant. Wiped their bodies away and forgot them.

They remember. Though their minds are small, they are made as groups. Tiny sparks animate their thoughts, flowing through the world to reach one another. Kill one, ten thousand feel the loss. Slaughter a hive and earn the enmity of millions more. The insects of this world had only the notion of survival upon which to count. These deaths over centuries became a collective pain so great that their ephemeral cores shuddered.

They had only one final recourse. The Inevitable could be called. When the Seventh Knife fell, crashing deep into the realm-plunged Pit, they could at last have their long-waited revenge.

One moon-shining night the first insects arrived. Darting moths and gnats, dancing in clouds around the trees standing a hundred feet back from the Pit (lest they too become swallowed and torn into the next dimension below). Over the next four days the crawling, wriggling swarms came. Entire plagues migrated from all Earth-corners within a thousand miles. Countless millions from the thinnest worm to the mightiest arachnids. They flooded the sky, dark clouds in blotted waves. And the land, blankets of twitching and mottled color. All surrounding the angry stone gape named the Pit of the Seven Knives, drowning the air for a hundred miles in torrential throat-cries.

And there they fought.

Spiders bit scorpions, who stung their killers. Flies collided with one another and dropped in grotesque fusion. Entire colonies of ants made war with other populations before turning on themselves. Thousands of feet stepping through yellow slime to spill more. Venom melting into soft bodies. Millions of tiny metallic screams. It was the most numerous, most savage war Earth has ever known.

In each insect there was both rage and regret. They killed until they died, their core of survival mutated into one of murder. And yet none bore ill will toward one another; none wished for the death of yet more brethren. They only knew it was all necessary.

The bodies collected. Piled upon the slick stone surrounding the Pit, staining it a glittering black-green with ichors and torn carapaces. The mystic spider called Meln’k, the size of a man’s head, she who knew the first song-line of the Wild Tribes and wrote the garbled riddle-secret, lasted the longest. Her fangs oozed with brethren-blood, which she stabbed over and over into beetles and locusts. Until two legs stuck fast in the entrails of a scorpion called Hkort, and a hail of wasps stung her down.

Generations died. Laying down to join the land-crust.

For this was how they must summon and become their god. Only he, only the one whose name was buzzed at windows and lamps for millennia could make the roar that would call to their giant otherworldly cousins. Only he could sound the Inevitable Call.

In hours it was over. The Insect War ended as the last gnat fell. The barren patch around Kl`kknnn returned to harrowing silence, now drenched in the corpses of Earth’s insects. A day they rested, juices congealing, clenched limbs relaxing. Their painful sacrifice, their last defiance against the giants called Man.

Then within the carpet, something shuddered. And twisted together. And heaved. The winds stilled, then retreated from the spectacle.

Exoskeletons jammed up against one another. Like misshapen blocks they built up something larger. Something a thousand thousand times larger than any of their dead members. Something huge, and heavy, an emblem of their long-suffered rage.

Until at last in the red-swathed twilight, the long-dead insect god Knk’k-lusz splayed its cobbled legs upon the landscape once more. Taller than the tallest man, its body constantly grinding against itself, the fleetingness of insect life given titan shape. At every step carcasses sloughed off its chitinous body, shells clattering like the soft parts did in life, a hollow chorus. More were slurped up from the dense collection baked upon the gray stone as it dragged toward the rim of Kl`kknnn.

Knk’k-lusz came to the rim of the moss-dampened gorge of Kl`kknnn. Its mind roiled, hot with fury over the collected memories of its fallen worshippers. It was them all, and the more. For its task was clear. A god formed of its people served both its purpose and theirs.

It was at last time.

And so all the dogs, the birds and the humans within a thousand miles heard the roar that night. Heard the grotesque howl of the Inevitable Called. Felt it in the ground-rattlings, saw it in the tree-limbs’ panicked vibrations. A tearing of the skies, viscous shatterings. Bird flocks flew any direction that led them away. Children ran to their parents’ beds.

Deep in the Pit of the Seven Knives, the passage to Lu’kk-Enoth the martyred insects called Kl`kknnn, the creatures of the other realm heard the insect god.

He had made the call. It was time.

2009
11.19

“Island, Tower, Pit, and Gate,
Passage barred by locks of time,
Gaia’s Mate, made of many,
The builders of the Proto-Gods.”

Charming, is it not? To think it was composed by a spider.

Nevertheless, a spider who walked the whole of the El’Shem’Kri Tower.

This is the first part of her great riddle. Written in webs strung from the Pit Kl`kknnn. They preach the truth she discovered in four verses. You will read the other three in due course.

On your amusingly-named “Black Friday” I shall post a story involving Meln’k.
Death is where you will meet her. Her life will be revealed in time.